Well after 3 day binge ending on Thursday I weighed in today at my mums. Verdict ? Well the title! Haha. Doing my best to stay on track. Had a wee dip but picking my self up. Food will not help my hurt and emotions go away! It only makes them worse! Xxxx
Well decided since mum pulled my arm to go into town that I would go and weight in at boots instead of waiting til her house tomorrow and verdict is …. 2 off!! I can’t begin to tell you how please I am. Especially after binge on Wednesday! Been exercising and putting money in jar. Once I get to £50 going to treat my self to something non food. Like new outfit reward for my hard work. Every time I binge it wiped out the days efforts. Good incentive eh?
So I was doing great. I’d fought off the whole flipping hard times. The peak of the binge. Go me. Even got through my wedding anniversary unscaved.
Then last night happened.
I need to draw the line before this carries on. How did it happen?
Maybe it’s because I was stressed I hadn’t studied in nearly a week. Annoyed at my self. I was. But that’s it head down.
Maybe it’s because I hadn’t exercised in a week. I was that too. It’s 5.41 and in going to now. And tonight and tomorrow. Around studying.
It started when Paul left with Simone for shop. I made her lunch and my dinner. Instead of studying. But I was hungry. I sneaked about 7 sausage rolls
Then I have a bounty ice cream. I got taste for the chocolate.
I began to think why the hell did I mutter the words to people “I’ve been binge free for a week”. Tempting bloody fate. I brushed off the ice cream it was pointed. I had two more. Pointed. Then I realised I pointed wrong. I was pointing 2 each and they were 4 :@
I tried to not let it get to me. I started watching telly. Couldn’t be bothered exercising like I promised. Got annoyed I had race soon. Not even made time to run. Because let’s face it if I have time to sit on backside not studying watching telly I have time to blood run or cycle or what have you.
From there I have half bar of chocolate. Sausage roll. Another bar of chocolate. Malibu and diet bru. (I hadn’t had irn bru in weeks. I was really proud of that!) half tub of ice cream half the bag of Caribbean wedges. Think that’s it. She says.
I am disappointed in my self. I wanted a good weigh in on Saturday. But there is not point in moaning. Pick my self back up and start again.
One thing I am grateful for is fact I could have got a take away. I didn’t. I’m still 1 week takeaway free and I would have had all that and take away prob.
Feel bit sick today but that DVD is getting it!!!!! Biggest challenge is weigh in sat. A gain will probably send me over the edge so need to be mindful and look at it from Afar. I want this. I need to mind myself!!!!!!!