Category Archives: weightwatchers

3lbs on

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Well after 3 day binge ending on Thursday I weighed in today at my mums. Verdict ? Well the title! Haha. Doing my best to stay on track. Had a wee dip but picking my self up. Food will not help my hurt and emotions go away! It only makes them worse! Xxxx

Alcohol is bad :(

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Eeeekkkkkkk two day hang over 😩 went out sat night. All weeklies and prob more gone. Only plus is that I was so ill yesterday being sick all day and not eating much at all. Been good today despite wanting loads of chocolate. Got enough for a curly wurly and a hot chocolate tonight. Xxxxx

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Weigh in a day early this week

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Well decided since mum pulled my arm to go into town that I would go and weight in at boots instead of waiting til her house tomorrow and verdict is …. 2 off!! I can’t begin to tell you how please I am. Especially after binge on Wednesday! Been exercising and putting money in jar. Once I get to ÂŁ50 going to treat my self to something non food. Like new outfit 🙂 reward for my hard work. Every time I binge it wiped out the days efforts. Good incentive eh? 🙂

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Reflect. Keep calm.

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So I was doing great. I’d fought off the whole flipping hard times. The peak of the binge. Go me. Even got through my wedding anniversary unscaved.
Then last night happened.

I need to draw the line before this carries on. How did it happen?

Maybe it’s because I was stressed I hadn’t studied in nearly a week. Annoyed at my self. I was. But that’s it head down.

Maybe it’s because I hadn’t exercised in a week. I was that too. It’s 5.41 and in going to now. And tonight and tomorrow. Around studying.

It started when Paul left with Simone for shop. I made her lunch and my dinner. Instead of studying. But I was hungry. I sneaked about 7 sausage rolls

Then I have a bounty ice cream. I got taste for the chocolate.

I began to think why the hell did I mutter the words to people “I’ve been binge free for a week”. Tempting bloody fate. I brushed off the ice cream it was pointed. I had two more. Pointed. Then I realised I pointed wrong. I was pointing 2 each and they were 4 :@

I tried to not let it get to me. I started watching telly. Couldn’t be bothered exercising like I promised. Got annoyed I had race soon. Not even made time to run. Because let’s face it if I have time to sit on backside not studying watching telly I have time to blood run or cycle or what have you.

From there I have half bar of chocolate. Sausage roll. Another bar of chocolate. Malibu and diet bru. (I hadn’t had irn bru in weeks. I was really proud of that!) half tub of ice cream half the bag of Caribbean wedges. Think that’s it. She says.

I am disappointed in my self. I wanted a good weigh in on Saturday. But there is not point in moaning. Pick my self back up and start again.

One thing I am grateful for is fact I could have got a take away. I didn’t. 🙂 I’m still 1 week takeaway free and I would have had all that and take away prob.

Feel bit sick today but that DVD is getting it!!!!! Biggest challenge is weigh in sat. A gain will probably send me over the edge so need to be mindful and look at it from Afar. I want this. I need to mind myself!!!!!!!

Xxxx

Woooooooo

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Omg today I have been so bloody snacky. I wouldn’t say I have binged but have overeaten. :(. There is a good thing that has come out of this again today. Right now and for last few hours I’ve NEEDED NEEDED NEEDED chocolate or the ice cream in the fridge. Only have 9pp left. Willing to use one ap to get the chocolate. Problem is it was the ice cream that was 10pp for the potion not the half bar chocolate. So I looked at both. Picked up chocolate and thought no I refuse to eat it without the points. Looked at ice cream thinking I have enough for that tho and then put chocolate back closed door and walked away. Can’t be bothered eating ice cream right now. Yup. I need to read that again. I CAN’T BE BOTHERED EATING RIGHT NOW. After feeling for ages I need to!!!! Just hope after 11 weeks or so I get another totm as that’s looming and can feel that dead snacky needing filled way. Xxxx

Just wanted to say,,,

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Something I am grateful for at the moment is not binging.  The power not to.  It feels good and empowering.  But more than that my health has drastically improved.  Even in less than a week.  I thought I’d always wake up sluggish. no energy.  Clutching my stomach and feeling need to *run* to the loo constantly over the course of the day.  I hope I can kick it.  Really can’t go on like this.  I am really happy I am sitting thinking about WHY I feel need to binge as well. xxx

Week ending 27th April 2013

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Wednesday 24th April 2013

Enough is enough!  I am fed up of always feeling ill, run down, sluggish and even more unbearable at the moment is how FAT I feel.  I have put on about 1.5st
Maybe even more and EVERYTHING is tight on me.  Even DD2 is calling me fat.  It feels awful.  Yesterday I was good as gold and then I had dominos for no reason.  Just greediness.  And the best of it is we are getting a dominos at work on Friday for the staff briefing.  I was still recovering from the weekend’s take away.  I think we have had 3 takeaways in a week this week.  This clearly isn’t healthy!!!

So new day, new chapter on my life.  Will get to goal.  Will learn from it.  And WON’T let it knock me when I come to my next stumbling block.

Breakfast – Lidl crumble cereal 50g (5), 100ml whole milk (2), banana (0)

Snack – Empire Biscuit (8), coconut steamer (5)

Lunch – Carrot and swede (0), Tomato ketchup (1), M&S count on us chocolate mousse (3), M&S count on us sour cream baked crisps (2)

Dinner – Cauliflower (0), 30g philly light (1), cheese (weighed out on WW scales) (4)

Snack – Nakd mint bar (3)

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I decided to devise an exercise plan too.  One that didn’t mean I was constantly thinking need to run need to run.  Although I really want to improve as a runner I need to fit any type of exercise into my life and also would like a little variety.  Once I have stated the swimming up on 1st may (well will be 2nd May I think) I have decided to follow the exercise cycle of; CYCLE, DVD, RUN, SWIM, REST.  Will see how this suits me.  Especially as the dvd is so short (20 mins high intensity) and the cycle and run could be done at home and in any time you like.  IE a 30 min programme. 

Today I cycled while watching the recording of Holby City.  I also got Paul to pick a character and when he came on I would cycle standing up for the duration that he was in the room.  At the end it was tough going as he had picked one of the main characters that night.  I ended up doing 26K in 57:40.

I also need to get this studying properly on the go.  I have no excuses.  I have no face book or twitter at the moment to help me study and all I can think about is how much I don’t want to do it.

I think that writing the blog again.  Even if I do it in work first and then update on a weekly basis would be great as well.  Get everything down every night and then post it into the titernet on say a Saturday or thereabouts 😀

After today I am definitely feeling more motivated.  Feeling like I can do this.  Like I can get to goal.  The plan is that on Saturday after weigh in (rem that goal I had set
well I am pretty sure I am nowhere near it, in fact I think I am even heavier!) at boots.  Once I have that number I will take that as my proper start weight and make up a wee chart to colour in and do all the motivating things I was doing before.  I am also thinking I should weigh in at my mums.  Probably ever Saturday apart from the last one of the month when I get my body fat analysed.

~DAY 1 TAKEAWAY & BINGE FREE~

 

Thursday 25th April 2013

Well today started well.  Last night I had promised myself that I would get up when the alarm went off at 6am and do Josie Gibson 30 Second Slim.  And I did!  Infact the first time I done it I had wimped out and not done the second round of 30 second high intensity.  This time I didn’t give up.  Ok I was rubbish but I did it all to the end.  It really showed me how little power I have in my arms and legs though.  They were very weak! :O  But it is something to improve upon.  Next time I will be doing it is Saturday morning as have no swim pass yet.

Snack – Cashew Cookie Nakd bar (4)

Breakfast – 50g Lidl Crumble (5), 100ml whole milk (2), Banana (0)

Lunch – 2 weight watchers wraps (6), 30g philly light (1), 70g WT chicken (2), salad (0), muller light greek yogurt (2)

Dinner – 3 Crumpets (8), 200g Heinz reduced salt beans (4), salad (0)

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Definitely feel like I have that kick back.  Now to see how long it lasts.  Studied a lot last night and now away to study for the remainder of the night since I have my exercise out of the way. 😀  I am honestly feeling on top of the world.  My dodgy stomach is almost gone and my dizzy spells have almost vanished.  Infact I can’t remember having any in last few days.  AND the bloating feels like its going.  Got bit back but hoping that is sign of monthlies returning from stopping the pill as haven’t had one in 11 weeks :/ The only niggle I have had is that I have a sore knee.  L  Lets hope that that goes away quickly.  If I am feeling a bit peckish tonight I will have BNS chips and some strawberries and grapes.  All zero heros!!! 😀

~DAY 2 TAKEAWAY AND BINGE FREE~

 

Friday 26th April 2013

Pretty rubbish all day round if I have to be honest.  I so wanted to binge.  The feeling was pretty overwhelming.  I even went shopping at night and bought chocolate and peanut butter ice cream (at last – I found some!)  The thing is
I didn’t buy it to binge.  I honestly never.  I never picked it up and thought “see when I get home you’re getting scoffed because I feel Cr@p!”  I actually bought it thinking I could ration it out.  And did I touch it when I get home?  No! 0;) Halos shinning there
see?!  This wasn’t my only NSV in a troubled binge urged day!  Today was the staff meeting.  Which always means *usually* a dominos with many pizzas to choose from plus the sauces plus the sides plus a fizzy drink or two.  At that point I wasn’t feeling the urge to binge but I knew even the smell could send me off on one.  As I was walking down the stairs to the meeting room the smell was pretty strong.  I had intended, the night before, to only have 3 slices.  I had pointed them  – as I knew which ones we were getting, which were stuffed crusts etc
  Then in the morning I had thought oh I will just take a fruit salad on and my nakd bar and have none.  But when I got in there the smell hit, my belly was rumbling, my mouth was watering.  I decided, I had my nakd bar in my poket, but I would eat that after just ONE slice of margareta stuffed crust despite all of them on the table and all the sides being passed around AND biscuits being passed about.  Oh AND I declined the cola & diet coke for water 😀  After the abysmal I didn’t want to even exercise! đŸ˜„ BUT I DID!!! 30mins on treadmill!!!!! Ended bad day nicely 😀

Breakfast – 50g Lidl cereal (5), 100ml whole milk(3)

Snack – Pear (0)

Lunch – Dominos stuffed crust pizza (6), Nakd pecan pie (5), mullerlight greek yogurt (2), fruit salad (0)

Dinner – 3 crumpets (8), 200g Heinz beanz reduced sugar (4), Lurpak lightest 10g (1)

Snack – Nakd cocoa orange (4)

Dailies 34/34 Weeklies 3/49

~DAY 3 TAKEAWAY AND BINGE FREE~

 

Saturday 27th April 2013

WEIGHT IN DAY!!!!!

Travelled into town and got Cheese her birthday pressies with Simone.  Also got us a few things and sauntered along to boots to get weighed.  Felt bloated the last few days despite exercising and eating healthy eating.  So it wasn’t a surprise (but still disappointing) to see 15st 4 come up L .  However have come home and set my self a few targets.  Well loads of mini goals.  J  My first mini goal is to get to 15st 2 next week.  And by the end of May (25th will be when I next weigh in at Boots) I would like to be 14st 10.  I am going to be weighing in at my mums every Saturday if I can.  Just to keep track and definitely keep up with things on the app for pointing.  Today has been iffy.  I have had another NSV by refusing ice cream several times! But I have felt snacky because I was tired.  But I identified that.  Today I will not be doing any studying I think.  I think Iwill chill out and just kick back.  I am planning on cycling tonight while watching casualty.  And I do have a lot of my weeklies left.  We’ll see what the day takes us.  Right now I have 10pp left.  And hoping to make 2 ww wrap pizzas 
. That may come out at bang on 10 😀 

Oh and no nakd bars! 😛 😀

~DAY 4 TAKEAWAY AND BINGE FREE~